When Did You Need God the Most?

When in your life did you need God the most?

Here's my story:

The time I needed God the most is when my business was crashing down on top of me.  After being burned by over $40,000 from a few different customers, it led to a spiral of bills to be paid, taxes that couldn't be paid, collection calls, and at a time where the value of our inventory decreased 30%.  I remember the intersection I was driving through when I yelled in my car, "God, what is the deal!?"  Immediately a thought crossed in my mind saying, "Are you willing to let go of the business for Me?"  Immediately I shot back (audibly), "am I willing to let go of the business for You?  I don't even know if that's you saying that or if it's my own thought!"

In the 48 hours that followed, I realized the thought that came in my head was not asking in 3rd person.  If it were my thought, I would have asked, "Am I willing to let go of the business for God?"...  He asked, are you willing to let go of the business for Me.  It hit me.

God needed to dump my boat, my business, my warped identity I had about myself in the business, and me holding onto the controls.  It wasn't an easy road for the next few years... they were some of the hardest financially, toughest in our marriage, and I felt like I had to be completely broken to be built back up again.

While I said I loved God, the reality is my business had a lot more mind space, time, money, and energy going into it than anything I was doing for my relationship with Christ.  God knew He had a bigger purpose in my life but had to break me, bust the business, and put my marriage through a refining fire before I could see a view of His bigger picture.

He is faithful,  Thank you Jesus for not leaving me in my busy, stressed out, off purpose, and self centered life I was living.

"We need God the most in the detours of our lives... God is in the detour..."-  Mark Beeson

That's my story of when I needed God the most, how about you?  Feel free to leave a comment here with your story to encourage others...